liquid memory (surrealism)

aite, so i guess none of you guys probably even read this any more but whatever.. i feel like posting this somewhere and this was convenient. i wrote a poem. its a bit surreal and im probably the only person who understands it but whatever. enjoy.

It was a memory
It was a dream
It lasted forever
It never happened

We moved underwater
It melted around us
Turned into plastic.
And melded to our skin

It was a movie
It was a cartoon
It wasn’t real
But it was.

We walked forever
But never arrived
We flew through time

It was a tunnel
It lit the way

Flying through space
Into another dimension

never to return

never to return

never to return

I saw a temple
A mayan work of art

It was never gone
But it was never there

I saw the earth
Imprisoned on the piece of a puzzle
I felt the nostalgia

But you can’t go back
You can never go back
Back to that carefree time

I was me but I wasn’t,
In my body but observing
Out of my mind but living,
Gone but still Believing.

I felt the blood course through me
Every single pulse in my veins
All at once, but never happening
I was alive.

I couldn’t see straight
But it wasn’t my fault
Time was crooked.

I pushed. I jumped.
Nobody but Time understood
I was in the future. I was in the past.

What never came,
Had always been

What had long passed, I saw again
when never came, what would I change?

It never happened

It never ended

I will never return

I was young again
It wasn’t too late

I could remake my life
Undo mistakes.

They would be gone, forever
It felt like a deal with the devil
but it was my only chance

I was back in 5th grade
Future me, gone back
I was young but I was old

I see now it was from my perspective
Only then it seemed another’s
But another me there never was
I was foreign to my own self

But oh how I wish my dreams were real
That my memories and dreams were liquid
That I could go back, and never return
I know could change it, if I could only remember.

Pulled through a tunnel
Flying through space
Spinning through time

Accelerating as you fall but do not worry,
there is no bottom to this fall
and life only hurts when you land

all I need is some food to eat
I will fall forever, but I feel alive

Like a drop of water,
As it sends ripples through a pond

I am that drop,
I feel the ripples encircling me

They never move away

But they never return

I will never return

I fell out of touch,
And landed in your arms

I flew with cows and bulls
And was in my youth again

The memory’s energy,
It gathered in a ball
It flew with the cows

Round and round and round again
We all spun, it seemed there was no end
Just let the music into your soul

Don’t cut yourself off
Nobody should have to be alone
What a cruel fate I almost realized
True friends will never leave you

In the dead of night
In the light of noon
In the tunnel of time
In the void of space
In the pool of plastic
In the drop of water
In it all I see you,
I will never leave you.

I will return to you.